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December 05, 2005
Being a SAHM is bad for my ass
Or if you like big butts and you cannot lie, it's good for my ass. Perspective is important.
Ever since I can remember, I have struggled with my weight. From the time I was a teenager, I have jumped around from a size 6 to a 12 and everywhere in between. But I have never been bigger than a twelve, until I became a mom. I cannot drop this weight. And I hear EVERYTHING... don't worry the weight will just fall off when you breastfeed, you won't have time to eat when you take care of a baby all day, once he can walk and you are chasing him around it will come off easy. I really fell for the first two which obviously haven't happened or I wouldn't be posting about this, now would I? And the third new mommy lie? Well, let's just say I don't have high hopes for his mobility changing the size of my ass.
So what's a girl to do? It's frustrating to look at all the Hollywood moms who took it off in three months. Proves it can be done - just as long as you can afford to hire an army to whip you back into shape. But even so, THREE MONTHS! And I'm sitting here 6 months later with 25 extra pounds enjoying a long-term lease on my 5'3" frame.
I definitely get exercise. I walk all over the place - Liam and I try to get out at least once a day - and I run for 20 minutes three times a week, but apparently that is not enough to shrink my waistline. And I eat fairly healthfully, I just eat a large volume of healthy stuff, I guess. "But you're healthy, so it shouldn't matter," you say. That is just a very popular lie. Cause it does matter - so I should really do something about it.
The only time I can remember being happy with my weight I was a size 5/6 and friends of mine were worried about me cause I was so small. I wasn't eating much and I wasn't taking very good care of myself, but sadly my self confidence was probably at the highest it's ever been. I remember saying to a friend of mine that when I was heavier I had always thought that if I could just lose some weight I would be happy and I was right. It's easy when you are skinny - you can put on nearly anything and it looks good and people compliment you. I know that I am the same person no matter what size I am - my happiness shouldn't be tied to my weight - but on some level it is.
Now, I'm not really one for New Year's resolutions - I never set them, but maybe just this once since the timing works I'll make one. My goal will be to maintain (ie - not gain) over the Christmas holiday and then really focus on getting into my pre-pregnancy clothes after the New Year. I'll share my progess with you all to keep myself accountable - so you can look for a new weekly feature come January. That is, if I can think of a way to make it entertaining.
Posted by leah at December 5, 2005 03:07 PM